What's going on with our fam or stuff Steph found fun.
Wow... been a long time again, huh.
I really am not wanting to work at all. So what's new? This is really bad though. There are so many fun things I want to read and write and type and read and, and... there's so much! An not one bit of it is work related. BOOO!!!
I really need to get focused.
posted by Steph @ 9:44 AM
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I had a conference call meeting that I just got out of. Kristi and Cindy had another meeting, so they went to that one. I basically represented our area by myself, and I did really well. It actually was a really good meeting. Basically, me and this other guy in MN took the meeting over to get done what we needed and the lady that was supposed to run the meeting essentially took notes and got some things assigned to her to answer questions. It was fun. Kind of makes me wish I was more of that type of position and not such a worker-bee. I think I could do really well. My problem is running into politics. I need John to teach me more about that. I need to learn how to read people and know what their real agenda is. Today was easy... me and this other guy Dale wanted to get what we needed and get out of there. Anyway, it was fun.
posted by Steph @ 11:43 AM
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B: 2 eggs fried in butter, 2 sausage patties, paleo punch: 9 ECC
TFL: upper body weights - and man did I work them! I'm curling 20# dumbells now! I'm going to be throwing those racing tires around with ease come spring! I can already tell the difference in refilling the water cooler at work.
Supps: yes
Water: 5 L at work (plus with meals at home)
Pamper: Went to bed early - an important thing since we get up at 4:30.
I was down a little at the Y last night, but not much (1.5 #'s). However, I woke up this morning, went to the bathroom (forever it seemed, can you say dumping water?), and felt super skinny! I know, skinny at 260 pounds! Anyway, I got on the home scale and it was 255. Enough to make me want to go to the Y tonight to weigh officially! But, I think I'll try to hang in there and wait until Friday. This exercise stuff has to be paying off in pounds soon! So anyway, I'm really pumping the water today, already up to six liters. (Hey, how many ounces are in a liter anyway? I'm calling this mug a liter, but I really don't know if that's the size or not.)
Thanks Margaret for putting the 100 Club and PPPics sites into the FAQ section!
--Steph--
309/261.5/150, PP 02/01/00, TFL 10/16/00, 100 Club
posted by Steph @ 11:04 AM
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Another quick post day:
TFL: cardio
Supps: yes
Water: 6 L at work (plus with meals at home)
Upper body weights and another weigh in tonight... will I be down from my one-year-anniversary wedding cake?
If you have 100 pounds to lose, don't forget to check out the 100 Club!
--Steph--
309/263/150, PP 02/01/00, TFL 10/16/00, 100 Club
posted by Steph @ 2:05 PM
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And he wrote back...
I am sorry babe. I didn't see what is happing. I am trying to sprint to the end. I didn't see this. You are right. I have been getting stricter. I didn't realize it.
Babe, you are doing very good. Please don't let my stupidity discourage you. I had tunnel vision. Like me giving up coffee and tea.
I really didn't see this happing to me. I started to realize this when I read you posting.
I am so sorry babe. I wish that I could be there to hold you and tell you that I am sorry.
posted by Steph @ 11:52 AM
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Sometimes it is worth the calories in it to keep me from feeling like I am on a diet. Accept for that brief time with you where we ate whatever we wanted, I have been on a diet my entire life, as long as I can remember. I always drank diet soda, ate low fat, cooked my chicken breast in a non stick pan and ate steamed veggies. Then, I would get fed up and go a few weeks of eating nothing but fast food. This is the longest amount of time I have
I just stopped there. I was tearing up.
How can you do this to me?
I am working so hard.
This is the best I have ever done in my life!!!!
FUCK YOU!!!
posted by Steph @ 11:50 AM
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My post on the 100 club:
I'm having problems lately... My husband has much less weight to lose than I do and he is getting so excited about getting so close. I have a long, long way to go yet. He wants me to have his level of excitement. We've kicked up our workouts now that we're doing the training part of body for life. We're trying to watch our carbs better (I am participating in boot camp for the first time). But, he's watching me like a hawk! If I have a snack, he gets all sad... yet, I get sad because I don't feel like I'm losing fast enough. I've added all this exercise and I really haven't lost another pound. I have lost an inch in the waist however... plus, I had some legal desserts in there, and a not so legal dessert (our wedding cake on our anniversary). But still! With all this exercise, shouldn't my body be able to take a few more carbs?
Okay, okay... so maybe I'm gaining muscle, and I shouldn't worry about the scale - especially if I can prove that I've lost an inch in my waist in three weeks. But come on... one inch on a 46 inch waist is not that big of a deal.
I guess my problem is... how can I increase my enthusiasm to meet his. Or... how can I explain things to him so that he understands that I still have a year or more to go and just because he's within six months of looking awesome doesn't mean that I am. He just says that even though I won't be at goal, I will be smaller than I have ever been in my (adult height) life. When I write that out, it sounds good, but I just can't get myself to be excited about that!
How do I turn my long term mentality into something that can be excited about very short term goals? And I should I even really be doing that? If I start looking for little goals, if I don't meet them, will I maybe get discouraged that the long term ones will "NEVER" happen? At this point, I think having a long term approach is benefitting me. Is anyone else in my place? Can anyone help me think of a better way to explain that?
posted by Steph @ 8:13 AM
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From John:
Babe, I can see you slipping as far as this diet goes. I don't know what I can say to encourage you. I want us to be successful at this. I mistakenly lied to you the other day. I am not going to quit the workout, even if you want to quit. I want to be in shape. I know that it will work. I guess, one way of thinking about it is this, which eating philosophy do you want to follow, mine our your moms? Who do you think is happier? Remember babe, people usually don't quit diets. They slip away. I know that this is going to piss you off, but I get so sad when I see you slipping. You need to get your mind into the spirit of the diet and workout. You can't just count carbs. You have to ask yourself, "is this good for me or is this worth the calories in it?"
Babe, that was a HUGE!!! steak that we had last night. We can have that kind of food, but there is a price. We will not lose weight as fast as if we would have had half that much. I don't have a problem with eating a big steak like that every once and a while, but keep in mind that it is fair. Normal people don't eat that much meat. We do, so we chose to give up other things like cake and stuff.
Getting up in the morning isn't going to make us fitter or thinner. What getting up does for us is give us strength and control over our bodies. Do you believe that? I do. I think that each time we get up when our bodies don't want to, that we gain control of it. The same is true for going to bed. If we know that we need to go to bed early so that we will perform better the next day, and we don't, then our body won that one.
Babe, believe me, I feel sad for you. I am so sorry that you are not losing as much weight as you want to. I know that you must be getting frustrated. I wish that I could say the right thing to make you feel better. But, as Toni Robins says, "dissatisfaction is a gem. If you are satisfied, you don't have much motivation to change." Babe, be honest with yourself. Let's crack down and get you out of this slump. To do that you will need to get it straight in you head that it is fair. It is fair. It is fair. It is fair.
Let's crack down a beat this thing. Tell me what I can do to help you babe. The only thing that I can think of is a two week crack down, but to do this you will need to want to do it and focus on having positive thoughts. For example, when we are going into the gym, and you feel like crap, you say, "I feel good. I am going to have a good workout." When you step on the scales and it isn't what you want to see, you will say, "I am going to really crack down now and beat this thing!" When you wake up in the morning and don't have any reason to get up, you will say to yourself "I am strong enough to do whatever I want with my body!!"
Let me know where you are at on all of this. Maybe I am over reacting.
posted by Steph @ 7:58 AM
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Felt much better today and feel pretty good this morning. The weather is better though, so maybe all that rain is what was making me hurt and be tired.
Not sure why the doc wanted us to quit the supplements. For the EFA, he said we should just eat more fish - to which we agreed. For the Mag/Calcium, he said that with the cheese we're eating, plus our multi, we should be getting enough. Since we've been on PP a while, he didn't see a need for the potassium (we're not dumping a huge amount of water anymore). So we're just going to be taking our multi after we use up what we have. Except, I'm going to continue with the vitamin E, mainly for my skin, which he said was okay. And John is going to continue with the glucosamine/chondroitin (sp?) as long as he thinks it is helping him. So, I guess as long as he thinks it's okay to not be taking all the extra stuff, I'm alright with that - it's cheaper! And by the way - even with all the fat we had been taking and eating, my skin was always still dry. Since starting the E a couple weeks ago, it's a lot better. But the doc did say that I could OD on E... I assured him that I only take one little caplet a day.
B: 2 sausage, 2 eggs in butter, paleo punch: 9 ECC
L: Pollack, veggies (didn't eat them - tasted funny), broc salad: 3 ECC
S: 1 oz cheese: 1 ECC
S: Pesto sauce on melted mozz cheese: 3 ECC
D: Fajitas/Taco Salad: 5 ECC
S: Honeydew melon: 5 ECC
Supps: yes
TFL: cardio
Water: 6 huge mugs at work (haven't measure the mug, but it must be 44 oz or better)
Pamper: The pesto! YUM, YUM, YUM!!! DH said I can't have it again though - too hard to clean the bowl.
Tonight will be upper body weights and weigh in at the Y. Sunday we'll be celebrating our first anniversary. We plan to have a bite of the top layer of our cake - took it out of the freezer this morning.
--Steph--
309/259.5/150, PP 02/01/00, TFL 10/16/00
posted by Steph @ 7:47 AM
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At the doc on Monday, he recommended that we stop taking almost all of our supplements, including the potassium. So, Wed was the second day without it. I was very tired, weak and achy all afternoon. Don't know if I'm correct in attributing to the potassium (since I drank SO much water) or because last weekend we visited my parents who have been sick and maybe I'm coming down with something. Feeling okay so far today. We'll see how it goes.
B: 2 sausage, 2 eggs in butter, paleo punch: 9 ECC
L: Ribeye, broc salad: 5 ECC
S: 1 oz mixed nutes: 4 ECC
D: Pollack, mixed veggies, broc salad, romaine/ceasar salad: 7 ECC
S: Honeydew melon: 5 ECC
Supps: yes
TFL: Lower body weights
Water: 8 huge mugs at work (haven't measure the mug, but it must be 44 oz or better)
Pamper: I was feeling so weak that I took a nap until DH got home, went and worked out, he cooked dinner while I napped some more, he did dishes, and then we went to bed. I was feeling better so I sat up and read Cosmo out loud to him. I think he likes that magazine more than I do!
Weight was back down a little bit at the YMCA. But I feel huge this morning. We'll see what it says Friday. I would think that it should be starting to come down some now.
--Steph--
309/259.5/150, PP 02/01/00, TFL 10/16/00
posted by Steph @ 7:43 AM
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Hi.
John has decided that we should do something for our anniversary. I was thinking we should to, but I was thinking... movie, dinner, ... home.
John was thinking roses, wine, hotel.
Okay. But where did our budget go? I'm okay with it actually, but it just makes me feel like... if we have to "suffer" all month long so that we can have money to pay our bills, then why should we spend $100 on hotel and dinner? Granted, the hotel room is only $53. And, we did just spend $65 on Red Lobster last weekend. But, we didn't buy any food the weekends we were at G'ma's and Mom's. But, we did have to spend gas money to get there.
I guess I would just like to spend smaller amounts of money more often then go off and have these big blow-out deals. Plus, it's not like Eagle Creek is going to have anything really super yummy to eat. We can bring in our own wine and cake. Well, I guess I'll just let John plan this one.
I'm tired. I had a really hard time working out on Monday. I hope things go better today. I just felt wiped. As I sit here and type this, my hands just ache! I want sleep, and lots of it. What is wrong with me?
So Saturday, we're going to make our hotel reservations. Then Sunday will be out to ECR. Next weekend will be cleaning the house. John still hasn't responded to my idea of getting a jump start tomorrow night. Hmmm... wonder if he's writing to me right now?
Okay, that's enough for now. I can't stand writing any more. My hands hurt.
posted by Steph @ 2:10 PM
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My goals for PP:
Long Term goals:
To be healthy, vibrant and one of those people who other people want to be like. A lot of personal goals are tied up in there, and I have a lot of household goals for this month too, but related to PP, I want to keep my average fat loss per month at five pounds or better until I get to goal. That means that I have to make up for a few slow months that I've had and this should keep me on target.
Intermediate goals:
At the end of the first 12 weeks of TFL, in January, to be at 240 pounds.
November goals:
This month includes weeks 3-7 of my TFL program. I expect big things. My goal is to lose 10 pounds of fat this month. That's a pretty lofty goal, but I'm ready!
Plans to make them work:
Follow PP, strictly keeping to 7-10 grams per meal, 5 or less per snack and 30 or less per day. Follow TFL (six days of exercising per week) and adding additional minutes moderate aerobic exercise where I can. Post to the BC every weekday and on weekends when I can.
Rewards:
These things are self rewarding in all the new things that I will have the energy to do, and the healthy body with which to do them! I just hope to keep up with my husband's energy. Since he's losing faster and wasn't as big to begin with, he's way ahead of me on the energy spectrum right now. However, we do have a trip to Florida planned for January. At that time, my DH will be at goal weight wise (he wants to continue to build muscle and the "look" that he wants). I have revised my goal weight recently to a lower weight, so as of today, I still have 111 pounds to go. By January I want to be at 240, which will be only 90 pounds to go. This will put me out of almost all of my clothes that I own. So, my tangible reward will be all new clothes on our January vacation and when we come home. Man, I'm going to have to add that to our budget, aren't I. UGH!
--Steph--
309/261/150, PP 02/01/00, TFL 10/16/00
posted by Steph @ 9:39 AM
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Always a work in progress.
