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I'm doing the Stillman diet today, and probably through the weekend. At least five days. Basically, it's all meat. I can eat lean meats, eggs (preferably hard boiled), shellfish, fish, fat-free cottage cheese, plus spices and some condiments. We'll see if I can knock off some quick pounds this way.

One hour left to go... Why do I do this to myself? Why can't I come to work and work like a normal person? I just want to leave!

I used to come into work and get into doing something and not want to stop... but then I didn't have anything to go home to.

I just want to go home.

I've been wanting to write more lately, so I think I will today.

This weekend was nice. We went to dinner with Doug and his new wife, Michelle, on Friday at Silver Creek. The food was great and it was so nice to meet Michelle. She's very pretty. Makes me jealous - or, maybe it's more envy. Not even really that... just makes me feel not as worth-while. I have such a weird reaction to other people. But dinner was great. We need to spend more time with friends.

Just got an e-mail from John. He's feeling really fat today. Me too. We're going to stick to the plan closely this week. I'm already on my fourth mug of water this morning. It seems to not be going through me too quickly, so that means that I was probably dehydrated and retaining water. By the end of the week, this will hopefully be straightened out and moving along again.

We took our measurements on June 3, so in another week we'll take them again. I hope there's a difference. This is getting to be a boring post, so I'll end here for now.

After a week of wearing flats, I have my AWESOME shoes on.

These are the shoes that my mom gave me for my birthday. After more than a month of wearing, I have to say, this is possibly the best birthday gift I have ever received. These shoes are so comfy. They come up high on my instep so they stay on without having to be held on with my toes. This is an important thing in women's dress shoes! Plus, my orthotics (sp?) fit in them. These orthotics help relieve the pressure of my bunions by supporting the arch of my foot and the meta-arch (the one that runs across your foot, from the bunion area out to below where your pinkie toe hooks on). Plus, the heel is perfect - 1 1/2 - 2 inches (how are heels measured anyway?).

So, besides feeling thin today, I feel tall and thin. The height that I was meant to be, not the height that I am. I've always felt that I should have been 5'9" rather than 5'7 1/2" - Mom's short genes got mixed in there just a little too much. Being tall makes me feel confident and lean and strong and ... just... wonderful! I love it! And when the heels are big and chunky, and the sole is rubber, I don't have to worry about slipping, or falling, or teetering. It's great. I should find more shoes like this and wear them and always feel this way.

I love it.

Subject: RE: Dirt Works

I like the national thing, but am worried about Martin. I mean, he does drive at our track, and Cottle, who is on his "team" also drives at our track - even more regularly.

Yes, Cottle, Burnside, and Martin all have Dirt Works cars and drive at our track, and that is what is cool about it. Everyone that Martin helps is fast.

I guess I'm a little prejudiced as well, probably in a way that you're not thinking of...

When I see Martin, I see the "typical race car driver" - 5'7"-9" - 160-170 pounds... even the short, neatly cut, dark hair. Also, it seems that he himself is very knowledgeable about setting up the cars - he's not "just a driver" - he actually knows stuff. I feel intimidated by both of those things - not to mention that's he and Cottle are direct competitors. As always, I hate being the stupid fat girl. In order to feel comfortable, I have to have something about myself that I can feel confident about.

I don't know how to answer that. Yes, he is more than a driver. I will know after a short time of talking with him if he is ready to help us or just sell us a car. If he is ready to help us, then we may purchase a car from him. If he just wants to sell a car, then we will go and find someone that wants to help us. As far as how he feels about you, he will be impressed that you have all of your teeth.

Maybe it would help if I knew what he did for a real living. Does he have a real job, or is racing and being the car distributor it?

He is a Cellular One dealer.

I just get scared talking to people. I know that it's silly. Help me...

Remember, people don't care as much about you as you think they do. He is going to be too busy trying to sell himself to worry about you.

Love you.

We talked all about that and then ended up going to bed without eating dinner.

I don't know what I think about that, but I also know that we can handle just about anything, so if that's what he thinks would be best, I say why not.

In the meantime, I'm not able to think about much of anything else besides racing and am having a hard time working. Then to top it off, Ellen here at work wrote to say that she was going to do a blurb on our racing in the next office newsletter. So of course I had to write a three page email giving her all kinds of details to use. WHEE!!!!

I cooked some beef at breakfast for us to bring for lunch, and it was good. Better than not eating. I've got to start doing weights though to see if that will help me lose weight faster. I'm really starting to feel left behind. John's doing so well.

Tonight we'll probably go visit Martin, who was last year's UMP champion and who also happens to be the local distributor for the Dirt Works chassis (what is the plural of chassis anyway?). Dirt Works is in Missouri. I'd rather go there and see it being made. It should all be an interesting couple of weeks...